Ten months ago I became a mother. My daughter, Rosie, was born on March 2nd and shortly after her entrance into this world, our government announced a lockdown because of covid-19. Without realising it, fear crept into my heart. I just put this precious, vulnerable and very small girl in this dark and broken world. The anxiety overwhelmed me. How was I ever going to secure her safety and her future?
Do you recognize that uncomfortable feeling when you are pushed out of your comfort zone? Stepping out of your ‘very familiar’ boat onto scary water is not easy. In becoming a mother, I also took on new ground. Ground that needed faith. To be honest, I rather wanted the Lord to remove my fears at once. Instead, He took me on a journey.
Fear is a liar. It is based on exactly the opposite of faith. Fear always points to yourself. What are YOU going to do to make this right? Who do YOU think you are? The anxiety overwhelmed me because I was looking at myself. I saw that I was unbelievably inadequate. I could not fix this global pandemic. I could not secure my daugther’s safety. I felt so small and inferior. Fear screamed all those lies at me: ‘you are not good enough’. ‘You can not handle this.’
1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
God showed me that the devil can only scream his lies. The devil creates raging seas and pandemics. He is loud to be impressive and intimidating. He roars, but he is not in control. And when we read further we see the beauty of our Savior.
1 Peter 5:10 But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.
None other than Peter knows how it feels to step on water and get distracted. To shift your focus from your Savior to yourself and start sinking. The sinking part feels like suffering. It feels vulnerable, scary and often lonely. ‘Lord, save me!’ I can relate to Peter. And without wasting a minute, the Lord saved Peter. He does the same for us. He will not waste a minute to help you. We can sometimes feel that we are sinking, but we’ll never drown.
I just love our Lord. He doesn’t need to scream to be impressive. He doesn’t need to be loud to be grand. He speaks in a still small voice and with that same voice He created the heavens and the earth.
1 Kings 19: 11 – 12 Then He said, “Go out, and stand on the mountain before the Lord.” And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.”
The Lord doesn’t need to shout. He is always close by. He lives in us. He dwells in our hearts. And from that place He shows us the Truth. He shows us that He is our Lord, our Jesus. When we hear more and more about Jesus and His finished work, all lies, strongholds and anxiety disapear. I saw my anxiety vanish when my conscious was on Christ. I don’t need to control the situation. He does. He was in control when He went to the cross and took all our sins and sickness. He was in control when He was raised from the dead. Now sitting at the right hand of the Father, He is still in control. And who am I? Who are we? We ARE beloved daughters of the Most High. We are the righteousness of God in Christ. We are loved, protected and set apart for a future filled with destiny and purpose. All we need to do is to listen, and take heed to the precious voice of our Lord. With Him every mountain WILL move.